Making A Comeback

June 18th, the last day I published a blog. That was seven months ago. To say I’m ashamed of myself would put it lightly. When I started this I wanted to connect with my readers as much as I could. How can I do that when I’m not even publishing? Reflecting on why it has gotten to this point is pulling me back and forth. Life is good right now and I’m doing my best to live in the moment. I have had my focus on school, soccer, and relationships, but that should not be an excuse for not sharing what I am writing. I never stopped writing. I stopped sharing. I had feelings of embarrassment, numbness and worthlessness when I finished a story. Why? To be honest, I’m not sure. All I have to answer that are stories piled up in a folder that are waiting to see the light of day. I used to be adamant on journaling every single day. I would talk about my ups and downs, what I could do better, what I would do if I had the chance to redo something, or look up a prompt to reflect on. When I stopped journaling with an actual pen, I started my “Insta-Blog”. Using an old spam account, I did the same thing, just through typing on my phone. I wanted to challenge myself to connect and communicate with others. I wanted other people to read my words and relate, be vulnerable. Well, I am ready to start over again. So, let’s revamp. This is a call to action. I’m challenging myself to write more, so I challenge you to read more. That being said, I did not want my “comeback” to only be an apology. So, I thought I would not only remind you but also myself of my mission. An old roommate of mine when I first starting “publishing” my stories, shared words that have stuck with me to today. She said, “Reading her blog leads inevitably to the realization that whatever you’re feeling, there’s always someone out there navigating the same crazy world.” I may not know you and we may live different lives. Or I may know you, but I do not know what you are going through. But there is a connection to be made when you click on the blog’s “read” button. Anyway, here are my missions. First of all, love big. Loving big as in do not be afraid to take the risk. Go all in or else you’re going to miss out. People always say that they don’t want to half-ass life. They do all this talk and then live life by going through the motions. How is this accepted? No one wants to look back on life and say, "I wish I did this. I wish I did that. What would've happened if I did?" We should be pushing each other to live a life where we are not holding back. Lastly, stay golden. To put it simply, smile and share your radiant joy!

So, readers, I’m sorry for failing you. I promise to be better. To be vulnerable. To not be scared. It's a new year to revamp the old. Stay golden, M